You'ze A Hoe... Sideline Hoe

You said you need someone to swallow his kids???

Well where the hell do I sign up?? smh.. so delicious!

Under A Rock

I’m gonna write this from under a rock,
Under a stone that got flipped and skipped
By some bad ass children down the block.
The lone stone
That stands alone,
Not a kick or a car to send it on.
This stone, my shield
Protects from the rain and snow
Covers my head from heat and wind too
So I aint got a reason to go.
This rock all jagged and rough
Scares away enemies
That call themselves tough.
So afraid of being cut
They dare not get too close
This lil old rock
Keeps me safe from most.
This pebble,
Reminds me much
Of Gods hand
Keeps everybody I dont need out
And everybody I do need in.
And so this is where
I choose to write.

Love Chronicles: Sidelines taking over the game

So. The guy that I was previously engaged to in KC?? Well we aren't engaged anymore. We were rocky for a long time anyway, and honestly I had fell in and out, and in, and out of love with him over and over again. I knew we weren't gonna be together because he wasn't doing anything with his life and that's not what i wanted for me. BUT I was like maybe I'm being selfish, thinking that I'm better than him since I'm getting a collegiate education and just maybe if he had a change of environment he'll not end up an aint shit nigga. I tried to save him, and so the day before I called him and asked him to move in with me.. I got a phone call.. from his "girlfriend"(who would've knew the entire time I thought I held that title) called me telling me she would appreciate it if I didn't call her man anymore... *side-fucking-eye*


Ok.. so I didn't jump stupid like I had imagined in my head I would do if something like this ever happened to me.. simply b/c I don't think I cared enough. She had asked me a few questions about his and I relationship, and i simply redirected her to him with reassuring words "if he is your man and you trust him, you should be able to ask him these exact same questions and get the truth" and with that. I hung up.

I aint gonna lie.. my ego.. oh it was hurt! But I'm done blocking my blessings, if GOD wants to remove people from my life, who am I to tell them to stay? So I let him go peacefully, and without bloodshed. I did the womanly thing ;). Didn't ease the pain too much, but I refused to go out like a hood rat, trying to fight everybody and slashing tires and crap. I'm better than that. And I'm better than him and her.

I'm not angry, or upset, I pushed him to her, though I do feel she could have waited till a decent hour(she called at 2am) to talk to me, I still realize this is a part of life and if she wants him that bad. TAKE HIM! I just took this all as a sign from GOD that this man wasn't for me. Because as soon as I got ready to take him into my home and take care of him.. HE ran interference(HALLER-LOU-JA). and I had met a really sweet guy my age, that tutors me in math ;)...  But anywho. I would love to hear about experiences you guys ever had with jumpoffs and sidelines? It would bring me comfort to know that this shit don't just happen to celebs(cause yall know I'm famous as shit right?) lol

My Issue with Femcees

So, one morning I woke up, and I checked my FAV celeb blogsite www.missjia.com and lemme tell you, the first thing I saw was a post that Usher and Nicki Minaj had collaborated on a song called "Lil Freak".

*sigh* Truthfully I didn't even bother to listen to it after I read the below brief synopsis of the song.

Usher teamed up with the super sexy, Nicki Menaj, for a track that openly discusses threesomes, bisexual girls and tittay signing called Little Freak. ~MissJia

Now.. no issue with lesbians, bisexuals, or threesomes. My issue is that this young lady, Ms. Nicki has a HUGE fan base! Young ladies and men from ages 7(probably 5) and up are listening to her, trying to emulate her, and calling themselves Barbies and Ken. And with such a large fan base I think entertainers in general, but more specifically FEMALE EMCEES need to be more mindful of the things they are releasing.

Which is why I cannot stand Female rappers! I feel like, yes there are video hoochies, and singers, and actresses. However, Video Hoochies are silent, and when that video comes on, those girls are nameless until you see them on the cover of King Magazine or whatever... yes, young ladies want to look like them, but they don't want to BE like them. Singers, same thing except.. and they tend to be a lil on the "classier" side when it comes to the lyrics and clothing. And actresses... well, it's just a role, off screen they're outta character.

But these damn Femcees! Oh LAWD! I mean.. come on! Every song they on, talking about deep throating pepsi bottles, getting ate out on they period, how u can pay for they sex! I mean shit, we all do it, nothing wrong with sexing, but damn if that's the only creativity your working with, i need you to get a better occupation. You literally have girls looking up to you, hanging on to your every word not knowing that even your ass don't believe your own damn lies! And not to mention.. these Femcees are ignorant. Word play is mediocre, for goodness sakes they don't even write their own rhymes! ugh


And I know ppl will fire off "but they have to be hypersexual if they wanna sell records" Hmm newsflash ding dong, Eve, Queen Latifah, Salt and Peppa, MC Lyte.. they sold records! Without telling ppl that they allow trains to be ran on them..They made sure their rhymes were on point and not so explicit so that FUTURE FEMCEES didn't have to sell their dignity to get radio play...

and I swear these bitches bout to blow me.

Shades (Inspired by Wale - Shades)

 
Chip on my shoulder
big enough to feed Cambodia
Spent countless nights
Crying over ya.

Cuz you didn't like me,
and I didn't love me,
While they ignored me,
Called me a darkie..

See, it's a cycle that
continuously repeats
like a washing machine
on the spin cycle
But I won't put my skin
through a rinse
and end up like Michael
Living my life trying to convince

You,
that I love myself.
But who am I trying more to convince
You, them or myself?
Sliding down the pole of life
after my Brothers sent me
to collect dust on the bottom shelf
Only able to toss me around
so carelessly
Because he hates his own self
Listen how History repeats itself.

Willie Lynch must find happiness
In his grave.
Smiling and laughing
afterall his flawless plan
suggested that
Hundreds of years after
the freedom of the Black Man
WE would still be slaves...
And I quote..
"On the top of my list is age,
but only because it starts with an A,
the second is color"
Or dare I say shade...
And all this information
can be found in the
"Willie Lynch Letter: The Making of a Slave"

So I would to take this time to apologize
I'm not a "yellow bone"
All petite and thin.
I'm sorry that my hair aint long and silky
like Caucasians are my next of kin.
I'm sorry that blackness covers
the outside of my shins.
But most of all I'm sorry that
You idea of beauty
ever made me feel that
My Blackness was a Sin.

My Black is BEAUTIFUL.
And I say this no matter the shade.
I'd feel the same way
If my complexion were honey
Or If I were black as a spade.
So I apologize sincerely
that you can't show me affection
Because you're put off by my complexion,
But baby this is how I was made.

So from a dark skin sista
to my black men
Shade doesn't matter
True beauty comes from within.
Honey brown, caramel,
toffee or Pecan
Shade really shouldn't matter
We're a rainbow of people
and we've been like this
since time began.

Ode to the Abandoned Blog...

No really  I haven't abandoned it, I've just been going through a huge writers block, my life is stressful, and I'm bout ready to snort some coke.... *sigh* I just feel like everybody needs me, everybody wants a part of me, and I can't be there for everyone.. but who really understands that? Who really understands that other ppl have problems too? These past few months, I've been a counselor, teacher, mother, maid, and all for damn free, people have been constantly taking from me, and offering me nothing but stress in return. There's so much to say but I can't get it all out..

To the blogger world.. I apologize. I'm up on catching up on 2 months worth of blogs in 2.5.