Love Chronicles: Sidelines taking over the game

So. The guy that I was previously engaged to in KC?? Well we aren't engaged anymore. We were rocky for a long time anyway, and honestly I had fell in and out, and in, and out of love with him over and over again. I knew we weren't gonna be together because he wasn't doing anything with his life and that's not what i wanted for me. BUT I was like maybe I'm being selfish, thinking that I'm better than him since I'm getting a collegiate education and just maybe if he had a change of environment he'll not end up an aint shit nigga. I tried to save him, and so the day before I called him and asked him to move in with me.. I got a phone call.. from his "girlfriend"(who would've knew the entire time I thought I held that title) called me telling me she would appreciate it if I didn't call her man anymore... *side-fucking-eye*


Ok.. so I didn't jump stupid like I had imagined in my head I would do if something like this ever happened to me.. simply b/c I don't think I cared enough. She had asked me a few questions about his and I relationship, and i simply redirected her to him with reassuring words "if he is your man and you trust him, you should be able to ask him these exact same questions and get the truth" and with that. I hung up.

I aint gonna lie.. my ego.. oh it was hurt! But I'm done blocking my blessings, if GOD wants to remove people from my life, who am I to tell them to stay? So I let him go peacefully, and without bloodshed. I did the womanly thing ;). Didn't ease the pain too much, but I refused to go out like a hood rat, trying to fight everybody and slashing tires and crap. I'm better than that. And I'm better than him and her.

I'm not angry, or upset, I pushed him to her, though I do feel she could have waited till a decent hour(she called at 2am) to talk to me, I still realize this is a part of life and if she wants him that bad. TAKE HIM! I just took this all as a sign from GOD that this man wasn't for me. Because as soon as I got ready to take him into my home and take care of him.. HE ran interference(HALLER-LOU-JA). and I had met a really sweet guy my age, that tutors me in math ;)...  But anywho. I would love to hear about experiences you guys ever had with jumpoffs and sidelines? It would bring me comfort to know that this shit don't just happen to celebs(cause yall know I'm famous as shit right?) lol