I owe you guys an apology!

I AM SOOOOOO SORRY!

OVER THE BREAK I HAD NO ACCESS TO THE INTERNET OR MY BLOG!!!!! and i'm not computer savvy enough to do this from my phone! So my apologies for not responding to your guys comments and for not commenting yours!!!!!!!!! Hope all your holidays went well! ;)

Look @ Me Now

Umm, I guess not as bad as I could be...considering
  I think I have some nice curves ;)
But still, we're gonna get toned up and beach ready ;)

Love Chronicles: Letter to my Ex-es, Currents,Stalkers & Potential Lovers

Dear *Insert name of butt buddy here*
*Sigh* Negro, MY LIFE does NOT revolve around you! Please stop texting me at midnight asking me to come over so YOU can get some! UMMM, NIGGA NO! The dick peen aint THAT damn good! I'm trying to get my beauty rest, I gotta work and SCHOOL IN THE MORNING, and u blowing up my damn phone so YOU can get your itty bitty dick noodle wet! AND it's cold outside.... *presidential side eye* get your life right BEFORE I have to cut you....eeek

THEN you have the nerve to always be calling me asking what I'm cooking, can I come cook for you, bring you something to eat, and etc, etc, etc... *sigh*eyeroll*lipsmack combination* We just FUCKED! I'm not your girlfriend, your wifey, your baby mama, your jumpoff, sideline, crazy broad, and whatever else u niggas are calling chicks that you have frequent relations with. Once again WE JUST FUCKED! The only benefits you will receive from just a fuck, is a nut! Anything else is extra, unnecessary and NOT in my job description. *swag face* You don't mean shit to me, I don't have any sympathy for you, or any obligations to you. You're nothing more than a peen attached to a half of a brain and a nice body.... We clear yet?? GOOD!

Dear *Inserting the names of a few of my Ex boyfriends here*

Stop telling me that you miss what we had.... I was 14,15, 16ish and I did not take you seriously...at all! Like, theres a reason why we aren't together!!! And with this distance between us, we probably aint gonna get back together any time soon! As soon as I get my degree, I'm going to GRAD SCHOOL in another STATE! FAR FAR AWAY FROM KANSAS!!! Where do you fit in? I don't love u enough or at all, to try to make shit work out from a distance, i would rather start anew! I mean if things are meant to be, then it will be, but I aint holding my breath about it. I mean it's cool, and I'm flattered and all that yall think about me like that, and yall wanna get back with me, but honestly unless we were like really tight, it aint gonna happen. And some of yall i had "irreconcilable" differences with... There's no bouncing back from that. But it's cool, we can still be friends ;). I wish you nothing but the best <--- well second best, cuz we all know I AM THE BEST *chuckles*.

I'm just saying stop crying over effing spilled milk, there aint NOTHING we can do about it. The girl for you is out there somewhere, it's just not me. And nobody took your place, you each have ur lil corner of my heart or something, but u just don't have my heart. And I apologize if ur feelings are hurt b/c u felt like we had something "special" but it wasn't that special. We still cool though??? Right?

Dear *Insert name of persistent bum ass fool here a.k.a Stalker*

I bought a can of mace today...just for you.
And I will use it!
Get a hint, you can't come over, stop calling, stop texting, and stop popping up randomly at my house. After I graduate from the mace I'm moving up to a 22. Malcolm X said "By all means necessary, but In the words of Jigga Man "Don't let the necessary occur".
We clear on that??? GOOD!

Dear *Insert name of interests, Aspirants, potential boyfriends, lovers, and friends*

If you must step to me, do it correctly.Respectfully, charming, and original.  
Quite frankly I wanna be impressed. Dick size doesn't impress me, size of bank account doesn't impress me, your shoe game, bling-bling, cars... and etc, doesn't do shit for me!
Quote Ralph Waldo Emerson, be able to keep up with a convo about Americas current Foreign Policy, aspire to do something other than rap, sing, play a pro sport, or sell drugs, and then we can talk. Please don't come to me and you don't have anything working for you....or if your not working. If we can't NEVA chill at your house cuz "somebody always there" lose my number, if I always gotta pick YOU up...lose my number. If you plan on ur 3 hots and a cot coming from me...lose my number. I don't have any children, and I aint looking to adopt yours..lose my number! Don't be salty about the shit, i'm just keeping it real. I'm grown, and if you can't compliment me, as well as I compliment you, don't even ask for my name.

Hope these tips helped you out.
Love, Mo

"Growing up is never easy. You hold on to things that were. You wonder what's to come. But that night, I think we knew it was time to let go of what had been, and look ahead to what would be. Other days. New days. Days to come. The thing is, we didn't have to hate each other for getting older. We just had to forgive ourselves... for growing up.”

Dear B. Yung

 Dear B.Yung,
Will you marry me? No, seriously, will you? I LOVE your thought process, your pen, your pad, your spirit. Gosh, where are the black men that think like you?.. Not in KS. :(

Georgia Me: Niggods <-- She inspires me to keep believing in blk men

My favorite Poem ever!!!!

If you MUST have a Holiday Party

Make sure that extra mothafuckas don't show up. That means TELL YOUR INVITED GUEST NOT TO INVITE THEIR FRIENDS! Makes for an uncomfortable situation... well if your me it does. *sigh* So I attended my friends Pre X-Mas party or whatever... anyway I checked the guest list 3 times before I left the house and once before I started this blog because there are certain people that they hang out with that I don't, and I'm the type of person..if I don't like you, I don't want to be around you PERIOD unless it's for business reasons, otherwise I catch a really STANK attitude.. *eyeroll* continuing... Well I checked the guest list and their lil slut ass friend was NOT invited...PERIOD! However, she came anyway. My guess is that our mutual friend *The Vegetarian PeaceKeeper* Invited her over.....

*crickets*

Now mind you.. there aint no secret that I do NOT like this girl, so for one of my friends to invite her to a holiday party that she was NOT invited to and not even inform me that they were extending an invitation to this maggot rabbit is completely beyond me! They know damn well I don't tolerate shit like that. And to add fuel to the fire this uninvited bitch had the nerve to bring her friend.... *blank-stare*

I'm so overdone by the shit... I left 10 minutes after I got there. Dropped off the cookies that I bought on the way over there mind you, and I said by goodbyes... I know, some people will say, "Well why did you let her make you leave?" yeah this goes beyond her. The party started at 8:30 I didn't get there till damn 10 something, and when I walked in these mofos was playing Nintendo 64... Mind you.. we're all 19-25... smh. I was just so done. A lil upset that I took a shower, wrestled with my mane(and being a Natural Beauty aint easy), picked out something cute to wear, bought some cookies, and scraped the frost off my car at 10 pm to go to a damn party for 15 mins.. My nostrils are so flaring right now.. I was so mad I went to Sonics. *eyeroll* I'm an emotional eater, I can give u a reason for everything I've eaten since last week. I only eat when I'm mad or sad... If I'm happy I can go for days without a meal.. yes crazy I know, but it's the truth. I need to work on that! *Sigh* anyway, I've calmed down a bit. And you know it's not that this girl showed up, it's that no one told me she was coming. They know I have to mentally prepare myself for situations like this, cuz I'm that chick that will sit back in a corner and talk about you to yo face and act like I didn't know you heard me.. I'm serious about that too. They are always pulling shit like this. Having me come over to cook for a "getogether" telling me who all coming, then inviting all these EXTRA mofo's that I don't care for to come eat the meal that I've prepared with love.... I absolutely hate it! And I wish they would stop doing that shit. Oh well, I'm declining invitations to all parties and get togethers for the rest of the year now.

Blast from the PAST! <-- Year that is ;)

Hey!

So, not a fan of New Years resolutions. To me they just say that "oh I'm gonna wait to the new year to do this" when, you can do it now, because nothings stopping you. *kanye shrug* I'm just saying. So instead of making new years resolutions I reflect back on my past year and I say "What could I have done better?" after all, I'm a go getter, and when my mind is made up, it's made up, therefore no sense in a resolution.
So this year, I've decided that I could have taken better care of my HEALTH... This was my first "official" year of college, and lemme tell you... I went overboard with the snacking!!!! OMG! My school - Wichita State University is the HOME of the ORIGINAL Pizza Hut! Kinda cool right? 1 dollar breadsticks! Oh my!!!
But not cool, b/c I completely disregarded my health filling my face with Pizza Hut, Chik-fil-A and Taco Bell on a DAILY basis because these fast food restaurants are all on campus at our student center. You can only imagine since I'm taking 15 credit hours and I work on campus, that's where I spend the majority of my time.. smh.

So to shorten things up I wanna look like the pic on the right by the summer time! No, no, no, this aint a self hate thing this is a - Diabetes runs rampant in my family, and i'm predisposed to being chunky already cuz my ppl from the south and all my Anties look like line backers for the Pittsburg Steelers- type thing. I only choose this picture of Miss Jia <-- click on link for website--> because we are similar in body types and the pic I had of self that looked similar to this showed some nippage... Besides, lets not front, her body is BaNGING! I figure since I'm a realist I'm gonna definitely have to change my eating habits.. I mean, I'm a southern belle living in the midwest, and I kid you not, my Grandparents were slaves! Needless to say I grew up on chitlins in July, sweet potatoes, ham, dressing, and macaroni on a regular ass Tuesday.. Fast food was seldom seen in my household. My stepmother, Nana, and MawMaw got down in the kitchen! And as much as I love my culture, and soul food, it's just not healthy for me. My 22 year old brother was diagnosed with Diabetes when he was just 14. and lemme tell you that boy aint nothing but sticks so I have no doubt that it can surely happen to me if I don't make a change...
So, off that tangent. I need a workout and a nutrition plan to put these wheels in motion.
And finally, I could have found more benefiting ways to spend my cash. As much as I worked last year I hardly have anything to show for it. :( ... I'm a girl that likes nice things and as I said before...when my mind is set, it's set! I have 5 more tatts totally 7. A couple of expensive ass bags(Coach, Dooney,Guess, Rosetti) that I'm advertising for FREE, and tons of frigging SHOES! It's just ridiculous. I splurge on unnecessary things. I guess now that I'm older I wanna acquire all the things I didn't have growing up. Lets just be real, I went from Payless to the Coach Catalog soon as I got a job, and that can't be good! I mean I realize it's ok to want, own nice things but only if those things are in your budget. And I would be a damn lie if I said that I didn't own a purse that cost more than my rent... Yes sad I know.
So I've decided I'm gonna get a second job and just save up. There is so much that I want to do! And my number one goal is to TRAVEL! Yes, I totally believe my mindset and my potential is to great for Kansas, so as soon as I get my degree I'm bouncing to South Carolina(My mind is already made up about it). But before I do that, I wanna see the rest of the country, and other countries and i can't do that if I'm flat broke! lol, so I figure, all my necessities are taken care of at this moment. The only thing to do now is save. ;) Feel free to give me tips on how to lose weight, eat better, save money, and just all around be a more useful person! ;)