If this is your friend, or you know somebody that knows somebody that knows this po soul and you have not spoken up about the atrociousness that lies before us... then I urge you to jump off a bridge..
Who told this po baby he could sang??? ha, I'll be laughing for the rest of the year about this.. Right up there with Val's sexy ass hubby Yung Melo LOL! Enjoy ppls!
Saturday, January 9, 2010
Friday, January 8, 2010
My first award EVER!!!
I'm so GIDDY!!! lol, yeah I don't really know how this award thing works but I'll try my best...
So here goes:
Few details about the award:
1. list 10 things that make me happy
2.tag 10 bloggers that brighten my day
3.link back to the person who gave me this award.Okay so 10 things that make me happy:
1)Shoes - STILETTOS!
2)Writing Poetry
3)Orgasm
4)Cooking good food
5)Sweets
6) Learning
7)Giving
8)Sleeping
9)Crime TV shoes
10) Reading.. this should have been higher on the list.
10 Bloggers that brighten my day:
1) My big sis Val <-- I always called her Pro
2) Val's lover. lol, my Afrocentric, intelligent, sis Tae <-- she's from BK and she'll cut you
3) Birdie over at PeanutButter.Delight
4)Narcissist Idk his real name and he's also the one who gave me the award ;)
5) Ms. J.Star
6) Ms. Robyn Latice <-- Love ya girl
and last but not least (cuz I don't have 10 ppl)
7)Reece <-- Love you too!!!
#3 is already done if you haven't read... ;) Now toodles and know that this award was given with love!
Things we all could do better in 2010!
It is now 2010 and a new year...every year we try to set these so called "resolutions" but this year let us do better as our resolution.
Health:
1. Drink plenty of water.
2. Eat breakfast like a king, lunch like a prince and dinner like a beggar.
3. Eat more foods that grow on trees and plants and eat less food that is manufactured in plants..
4. Live with the 3 E's -- Energy, Enthusiasm and Empathy
5. Make time to pray.
6. Play more games
7. Read more books than you did in 2009 .
8. Sit in silence for at least 10 minutes each day
9. Sleep for 7 hours.
10. Take a 10-30 minutes walk daily. And while you walk, smile.
Personality:
11. Don't compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about.
12. Don't have negative thoughts or things you cannot control. Instead invest your energy in the positive present moment.
13. Don't over do. Keep your limits.
14. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
15. Don't waste your precious energy on gossip.
16. Dream more while you are awake
17. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need..
18. Forget issues of the past. Don't remind your partner with His/her mistakes of the past. That will ruin your present happiness.
19. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone. Don't hate others.
20. Make peace with your past so it won't spoil the present.
21. No one is in charge of your happiness except you.
22. Realize that life is a school and you are here to learn. Problems are simply part of the curriculum that appear and fade away like algebra class but the lessons you learn will last a lifetime.
23. Smile and laugh more.
24. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree...
Society:
25. Call your family often.
26. Each day give something good to others.
27. Forgive everyone for everything.
28. Spend time w/ people over the age of 70 & under the age of 6.
29. Try to make at least three people smile each day.
30. What other people think of you is none of your business.
31. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends will. Stay in touch.
Life:
32. Do the right thing!
33. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.
34. GOD heals everything.
35. However good or bad a situation is, it will change..
36. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
37. The best is yet to come..
38. When you awake alive in the morning, thank GOD for it.
39. Your Inner most is always happy. So, be happy.
Last but not the least:
40. Please Forward this to everyone you care about, I just did.
Health:
1. Drink plenty of water.
2. Eat breakfast like a king, lunch like a prince and dinner like a beggar.
3. Eat more foods that grow on trees and plants and eat less food that is manufactured in plants..
4. Live with the 3 E's -- Energy, Enthusiasm and Empathy
5. Make time to pray.
6. Play more games
7. Read more books than you did in 2009 .
8. Sit in silence for at least 10 minutes each day
9. Sleep for 7 hours.
10. Take a 10-30 minutes walk daily. And while you walk, smile.
Personality:
11. Don't compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about.
12. Don't have negative thoughts or things you cannot control. Instead invest your energy in the positive present moment.
13. Don't over do. Keep your limits.
14. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
15. Don't waste your precious energy on gossip.
16. Dream more while you are awake
17. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need..
18. Forget issues of the past. Don't remind your partner with His/her mistakes of the past. That will ruin your present happiness.
19. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone. Don't hate others.
20. Make peace with your past so it won't spoil the present.
21. No one is in charge of your happiness except you.
22. Realize that life is a school and you are here to learn. Problems are simply part of the curriculum that appear and fade away like algebra class but the lessons you learn will last a lifetime.
23. Smile and laugh more.
24. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree...
Society:
25. Call your family often.
26. Each day give something good to others.
27. Forgive everyone for everything.
28. Spend time w/ people over the age of 70 & under the age of 6.
29. Try to make at least three people smile each day.
30. What other people think of you is none of your business.
31. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends will. Stay in touch.
Life:
32. Do the right thing!
33. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.
34. GOD heals everything.
35. However good or bad a situation is, it will change..
36. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
37. The best is yet to come..
38. When you awake alive in the morning, thank GOD for it.
39. Your Inner most is always happy. So, be happy.
Last but not the least:
40. Please Forward this to everyone you care about, I just did.
Thursday, January 7, 2010
A quote I fell in love with ;)
MAYBE some women aren't meant to be tamed. Maybe they just need to run free til they find someone just as wild to run with them." ~Sex and the City
Monday, January 4, 2010
Love Chronicles: From Becky to Boniqua... It takes time
*sigh*<--- always starts with a sigh right???
Name: Mr. Yes Sir, a.k.a Mr. I've never dated a black woman, a.k.a Mr. I wanna spoil you
Age: 26
Relationship status: Single... but looking to get with me
Ethnicity: Black
Occupation: Future member of KCK's finest.. b.k.a The PoPo
Stability: Has his own house, car, and at least a H.S diploma, no visible tatts, no big chains, no overly outrageous chains, pinky rings or gold teeth(thank ya LAWD)
NO ILLEGAL SUBSTANCES- Not a career criminal, pants on his waist... no guns.. 1 kid... clean cut, no body odors,
Shoe size: ;) I don't know.......... yet
AND HE HAS MANNERS!!!!! :D <-- yo, you don't understand.. I'm cheesing hard right now
Anyway... cool guy, seemingly has his head on straight and he's willing to travel the 3 hrs from home to Wichita to spend time with yours truly... But I still have a letter to write to him cause there are some things that needs to be addressed.
**************************
Dear Mr. Yes Sir,
You just got out of a longterm (5yr) relationship with the mother of your daughter. And I realize you're hurt because the decision was not yours, and everything is all good if you're truly ready to move on, however, umm, I'm hesitant. The fact that you've suddenly become infatuated with me after never dating other black women and in fact actually preferring white women over black women kinda unnerves me.
Reason being... though NOT scientifically proven, it is STRONGLY suggested that there is a HUGE difference between the mannerisms and attitudes of black women and white women. A difference that I'm not sure you are prepared to conquer. You said so yourself that your ex never talked back, did whatever you asked/told and absolutely did not hold her own against you... as many of your exes didn't.. However, that shit.. WILL NOT FLY WITH ME! And I would be lying if I did not question your ability to move on from a passive, sheltered, never had to work for nothing, and never knowing how to stand up for herself white woman(not all white women, just that particular one) to a very aggressive, neck snapping, eye rolling, will cuss you out and kiss my mama with the same mouth, can hold my own in the classroom or the club, rough around the edges straight from from 21st and Quindaro lil black girl.
All I'm saying is, it's peculiar to me that you've never liked the attitude of any black woman and yet you claim you want to be with me, and anybody will tell you that I'm like Little Sista Soulja. This scenario confuses me to no end.
And we've already established that... I'm not ANYTHING like any of the women that you are use to dating, or like any of the black women that have similar characteristics of the women you are use to dating..in fact in your Conservative party... I'm completely the weed smoking(not really), gun toting, hell yes to gay marriage Liberal.
Can you handle that? I wasted no time showing my true colors with you because I didn't wanna send your ass into a culture shock. I wanted you to know that what you see is completely what you will get and I will be damned if I try and put on this little seemingly domesticated, docile, fragile role just to be the type of woman that you are accustomed to pursuing.
Now I understand you say that you like me, and you feel very strongly about me and it's crazy to you as well, and that's fine. I'm just saying don't play with fire, you will get burned. And if you are thinking about experimenting with black women don't use me as the lab rat because you'll think you're trying to get into my head when all along I will be the one getting into your head to find the safest, quickest route to the cheese. Cuz I like cheese even though I'm mildly lactose intolerant <-- but that's neither here nor there.
By all means, if you feel like you're ready for me, you can handle me, and if you truly want to spoil me like you say you do, I absolutely will not stop you ;)... And I like you too, I appreciate the fact that you think of enough of me to send a good morning text, and a simple "i'm thinking about you" during the day. I like that you want to hold me, and that you miss me only hours after I've left your presence, and that you open my doors, and I never have to ask if you're paying cause you'll just look at me and say "Well, what else am I hear for?"... yes, all this makes my heart skip a lil beat, and I'm really excited that you use chapstick and you chew gum... that makes kissing you fun. *sigh*..... Though you're not on my mind 24/7 I think you may have what it takes to put some "act right" in my life.... maybe. I just really want to take it slow. Continue feeling each other out, so I won't have to hang onto your arms really tight whenever we're in the presence of a lot of white girls (cuz you know that time we went to the theatre out in NKC I was damn near sitting on your ass and blocking your view of the screen) because of my own little insecurities. And that is something that I'm gonna have to work on, I have to get myself to the point when I believe that NO WOMAN regardless of race, or class, or whatever has anything on what I got.
And honestly... I see myself being just as cautious with you and your preference as I was with my ex. He liked lighter chicks... and in the end, he ended up cheating on me with a lighter chick, with longer hair(even though it was a trife ass weave), and she was smaller.
Now granted I love myself, and he told me his preferences up front too, said he didn't know what it was about me that had him attracted but he was, and he absolutely had me believing that I was the only chick in his system for a long time... but i wasn't, and ultimately his preference of women overruled his feelings for me. So I guess, it's just one of those things that I always say... I don't have to put my hand up to a hot iron but one time to realize that it will burn me if I keep trying. I guess right now.. this is me, not wanting to be burned again.
I mean I like you... but I think I'm gonna proceed with caution.... and you should too.
“Caution is the eldest child of wisdom” ~ Victor Hugo
Name: Mr. Yes Sir, a.k.a Mr. I've never dated a black woman, a.k.a Mr. I wanna spoil you
Age: 26
Relationship status: Single... but looking to get with me
Ethnicity: Black
Occupation: Future member of KCK's finest.. b.k.a The PoPo
Stability: Has his own house, car, and at least a H.S diploma, no visible tatts, no big chains, no overly outrageous chains, pinky rings or gold teeth(thank ya LAWD)
NO ILLEGAL SUBSTANCES- Not a career criminal, pants on his waist... no guns.. 1 kid... clean cut, no body odors,
Shoe size: ;) I don't know.......... yet
AND HE HAS MANNERS!!!!! :D <-- yo, you don't understand.. I'm cheesing hard right now
Anyway... cool guy, seemingly has his head on straight and he's willing to travel the 3 hrs from home to Wichita to spend time with yours truly... But I still have a letter to write to him cause there are some things that needs to be addressed.
**************************
Dear Mr. Yes Sir,
You just got out of a longterm (5yr) relationship with the mother of your daughter. And I realize you're hurt because the decision was not yours, and everything is all good if you're truly ready to move on, however, umm, I'm hesitant. The fact that you've suddenly become infatuated with me after never dating other black women and in fact actually preferring white women over black women kinda unnerves me.
Reason being... though NOT scientifically proven, it is STRONGLY suggested that there is a HUGE difference between the mannerisms and attitudes of black women and white women. A difference that I'm not sure you are prepared to conquer. You said so yourself that your ex never talked back, did whatever you asked/told and absolutely did not hold her own against you... as many of your exes didn't.. However, that shit.. WILL NOT FLY WITH ME! And I would be lying if I did not question your ability to move on from a passive, sheltered, never had to work for nothing, and never knowing how to stand up for herself white woman(not all white women, just that particular one) to a very aggressive, neck snapping, eye rolling, will cuss you out and kiss my mama with the same mouth, can hold my own in the classroom or the club, rough around the edges straight from from 21st and Quindaro lil black girl.
All I'm saying is, it's peculiar to me that you've never liked the attitude of any black woman and yet you claim you want to be with me, and anybody will tell you that I'm like Little Sista Soulja. This scenario confuses me to no end.
And we've already established that... I'm not ANYTHING like any of the women that you are use to dating, or like any of the black women that have similar characteristics of the women you are use to dating..in fact in your Conservative party... I'm completely the weed smoking(not really), gun toting, hell yes to gay marriage Liberal.
Can you handle that? I wasted no time showing my true colors with you because I didn't wanna send your ass into a culture shock. I wanted you to know that what you see is completely what you will get and I will be damned if I try and put on this little seemingly domesticated, docile, fragile role just to be the type of woman that you are accustomed to pursuing.
Now I understand you say that you like me, and you feel very strongly about me and it's crazy to you as well, and that's fine. I'm just saying don't play with fire, you will get burned. And if you are thinking about experimenting with black women don't use me as the lab rat because you'll think you're trying to get into my head when all along I will be the one getting into your head to find the safest, quickest route to the cheese. Cuz I like cheese even though I'm mildly lactose intolerant <-- but that's neither here nor there.
By all means, if you feel like you're ready for me, you can handle me, and if you truly want to spoil me like you say you do, I absolutely will not stop you ;)... And I like you too, I appreciate the fact that you think of enough of me to send a good morning text, and a simple "i'm thinking about you" during the day. I like that you want to hold me, and that you miss me only hours after I've left your presence, and that you open my doors, and I never have to ask if you're paying cause you'll just look at me and say "Well, what else am I hear for?"... yes, all this makes my heart skip a lil beat, and I'm really excited that you use chapstick and you chew gum... that makes kissing you fun. *sigh*..... Though you're not on my mind 24/7 I think you may have what it takes to put some "act right" in my life.... maybe. I just really want to take it slow. Continue feeling each other out, so I won't have to hang onto your arms really tight whenever we're in the presence of a lot of white girls (cuz you know that time we went to the theatre out in NKC I was damn near sitting on your ass and blocking your view of the screen) because of my own little insecurities. And that is something that I'm gonna have to work on, I have to get myself to the point when I believe that NO WOMAN regardless of race, or class, or whatever has anything on what I got.
And honestly... I see myself being just as cautious with you and your preference as I was with my ex. He liked lighter chicks... and in the end, he ended up cheating on me with a lighter chick, with longer hair(even though it was a trife ass weave), and she was smaller.
Now granted I love myself, and he told me his preferences up front too, said he didn't know what it was about me that had him attracted but he was, and he absolutely had me believing that I was the only chick in his system for a long time... but i wasn't, and ultimately his preference of women overruled his feelings for me. So I guess, it's just one of those things that I always say... I don't have to put my hand up to a hot iron but one time to realize that it will burn me if I keep trying. I guess right now.. this is me, not wanting to be burned again.
I mean I like you... but I think I'm gonna proceed with caution.... and you should too.
“Caution is the eldest child of wisdom” ~ Victor Hugo
Love Chronicles: I'd Rather He Love Me Back
*Sigh* The days of lying to myself are OVER! lol <--- feels good to say that.
For years I've made excuses for what this fool is doing, how he has no other options and blah blah blah, but those days are over... He's an idiot. yes I'm talking about POTS! lol, i'm only witholding his name for privacy reasons...
One of my ex boyfriends brought up a very good point. He said "you lowering yourself for a nigga"... and u know what, he was right. I did lower myself for a "nigga". But it was only under the pretenses that i was bending so that I could pick him up with me. :) I had good intentions. However, I broke my back for nothing. I have so many options in life, so many things to do with MY LIFE! Why run behind someone with only 2 options? Lets just be real, There are only 2 ways out the game when u playing it as hard as he is. *shrug*
But yeah, the last straws were pulled today, and I've decided that I absolutely CANNOT keep going in circles with this guy.
yes I know..what about "Operation Cold Turkey" well I've been cheating. Slipped up and called the very first day..and since then I've been lying to myself *shrug*
But I've also been praying and asking GOD for the strength. Well tonight I got my answer. Not gonna say what it was b/c my talk with my Lord was between Him and I. :)
Just know that my future doesn't involve Pots.
Which is fine with me. Lemme tell you. I let him put me on the back burner so many times. Made excuses for his behavior. Convinced myself that he really did 'love" me, but honey actions speak louder than words, and he wasn't showing me nothing. But I still stayed..i know, like an idiot. All my bad.
But now, I'm just like hey, if that's what u want, do you. I'm gonna do me. And after all this bullshit I've been through, I find a HUGE comfort in knowing that..
He will NEVER
ever,
ever,
Have another like me. :) I know that I put my all into this, and when u put ur all into something that only thing that results from it is Beauty, Greatness, and Lots of Love!!!!!
Blood, sweat, and tears were put into this, luckily for me, my body produces a lot of all of that so I'm not losing out on ANYTHING ELSE! cuz Lawd knows I gave up enough of myself for him. Too much of myself for him.
Ask me would I do it again??
of course!!! I would LOVE to LOVE ANOTHER as much as I loved him....
only thing that will change...
Well I'll make sure the next one LOVES ME BACK! AND SHOWS IT!!!
Luckily for him I'm a forgiving person. And I will never stay down for too long. Unfortunately for me, the saga continues. lol, Since I know POTS obviously ISN'T the man for me...Who is the guy for me?
Am I looking? <--- Nope
but I'm very anxious for what the future holds for me! I see the LIGHT!!!!! <--- but I'm not sure how much of that light is coming from being exhausted. lol
Chile lemme take my ass to sleep while I'm up all extra late b/c I'm so excited for tomorrow! And no, nothing special is happening, I just know that tomorrow is gonna bring me one step closer to my destiny. Whatever my calling is in life, and the man of my dreams!!!
Let me halt...lol, I need to learn patience.
“All human wisdom is summed up in two words - wait and hope”
For years I've made excuses for what this fool is doing, how he has no other options and blah blah blah, but those days are over... He's an idiot. yes I'm talking about POTS! lol, i'm only witholding his name for privacy reasons...
One of my ex boyfriends brought up a very good point. He said "you lowering yourself for a nigga"... and u know what, he was right. I did lower myself for a "nigga". But it was only under the pretenses that i was bending so that I could pick him up with me. :) I had good intentions. However, I broke my back for nothing. I have so many options in life, so many things to do with MY LIFE! Why run behind someone with only 2 options? Lets just be real, There are only 2 ways out the game when u playing it as hard as he is. *shrug*
But yeah, the last straws were pulled today, and I've decided that I absolutely CANNOT keep going in circles with this guy.
yes I know..what about "Operation Cold Turkey" well I've been cheating. Slipped up and called the very first day..and since then I've been lying to myself *shrug*
But I've also been praying and asking GOD for the strength. Well tonight I got my answer. Not gonna say what it was b/c my talk with my Lord was between Him and I. :)
Just know that my future doesn't involve Pots.
Which is fine with me. Lemme tell you. I let him put me on the back burner so many times. Made excuses for his behavior. Convinced myself that he really did 'love" me, but honey actions speak louder than words, and he wasn't showing me nothing. But I still stayed..i know, like an idiot. All my bad.
But now, I'm just like hey, if that's what u want, do you. I'm gonna do me. And after all this bullshit I've been through, I find a HUGE comfort in knowing that..
He will NEVER
ever,
ever,
Have another like me. :) I know that I put my all into this, and when u put ur all into something that only thing that results from it is Beauty, Greatness, and Lots of Love!!!!!
Blood, sweat, and tears were put into this, luckily for me, my body produces a lot of all of that so I'm not losing out on ANYTHING ELSE! cuz Lawd knows I gave up enough of myself for him. Too much of myself for him.
Ask me would I do it again??
of course!!! I would LOVE to LOVE ANOTHER as much as I loved him....
only thing that will change...
Well I'll make sure the next one LOVES ME BACK! AND SHOWS IT!!!
Luckily for him I'm a forgiving person. And I will never stay down for too long. Unfortunately for me, the saga continues. lol, Since I know POTS obviously ISN'T the man for me...Who is the guy for me?
Am I looking? <--- Nope
but I'm very anxious for what the future holds for me! I see the LIGHT!!!!! <--- but I'm not sure how much of that light is coming from being exhausted. lol
Chile lemme take my ass to sleep while I'm up all extra late b/c I'm so excited for tomorrow! And no, nothing special is happening, I just know that tomorrow is gonna bring me one step closer to my destiny. Whatever my calling is in life, and the man of my dreams!!!
Let me halt...lol, I need to learn patience.
“All human wisdom is summed up in two words - wait and hope”
Saturday, January 2, 2010
I owe you guys an apology!
I AM SOOOOOO SORRY!
OVER THE BREAK I HAD NO ACCESS TO THE INTERNET OR MY BLOG!!!!! and i'm not computer savvy enough to do this from my phone! So my apologies for not responding to your guys comments and for not commenting yours!!!!!!!!! Hope all your holidays went well! ;)
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