Confessions of a fat girl: I dnt look good in a dress

Well my thighs look good.. and I fill them out nicely.. but something.. something aint quite right. Oh.. maybe it's the fact that now when I lift my arms.. something jiggles. And I can't suck my belly in and make it look flat anymore :(. Damnit I'm getting fat, but I thought I was slimming up. Hmm. well good thing me and the boo are going running tomorrow at 5am. I dnt like it one bit.. but I'd rather not be obese. I guess it's time for me to get my life in order.. P90X, Insanity.. Gilad full body workout! SOMETHING!

It's My Birffday! I'll be FLY if I want too!!!

Oh and Shout out to Unpretentious Narcissist it's his birthday too! So go show him some L O V E

Me when I was 3!!!!



20 never looked so good ;)

Do you know what today is??? 4/11/2010

It's my NAPTURALVERSARY!!!! 

 This pic was taken a couple of weeks after my b/c.. I did my makeup ;)







The below pic was taken on my BIRTHDAY Apr 15, 2009(19yrs) just 4 days after my b/c ;)

 Me today ;)

Love Chronicles: Mirror Mirror

*cues Kelly Price Mirror Mirror - My remix*

Was looking for love, and never could find it

while he's standing there but

I was so blinded

by the gold in his grill,

When I looked at this nigga

I saw a house a house and 3 meals,

Kids, cars, vacations, and a dog....

smh.. yes, yes, once upon a time I was one of those girls. But you know, I'm growing up now and that thug appeal.. it's no more. I mean sure, the tatts, the muscles, the charm, oh the smiles, the feeling that you will be protected while with this man, and the FANTABOLOUS SEX! will be missed, and even craved from time to time, but when I meet guys now, I'm more into trying to figure out the odds of me having to bail him out of jail, how likely it is that he'll live past the age of 30, and if I'm gonna have drama with hoochies. And best believe if I have any kind of ill feelings whatsoever that man is dismissed! And while the whole "bad boy" thing isn't completely out of my system, I think more rationally now, and I dnt give a damn how much my pussy need a pounding like an opponent in a Mayweather fight... I won't set myself up. Those types of men rarely commit, they don't reserve the right to call themselves men, and I'm probably NOT gonna be the only woman in his life(cuz a man with good dick, is a man that rarely keeps it to himself)...

With all this being said... I'm falling for a nerd. More specifically my math tutor *dreamy eyes*... I've never dated a guy my age before. And he's my age. He's so awesome! I mean genuinely terrific! It's been 3months! We've only been together for a couple of weeks, but dated for 3 months I should say, and lemme tell you, he has a job, loves his mama, is pursuing a collegiate education in computer science, wants to attend Howard for grad school, and I can hold an INTELLIGENT conversation with him.. and he makes me laugh, but he's so corny he's cute, always showering me with affection(i'm still getting used to this) opens all my doors, MAKES ME SANDWICHES.. foot massages, dates multiple times a week, his cell phone isn't always blowing up. Low haircut, pants pulled up, belt, I've never heard him use the word nigga, bitch, or hoe. He speaks proper english, no gold teeth, earrings, or tattoos.. Damnit! I GOT THE NEXT BLACK PRESIDENT!! *sigh* My grandmama would be so proud.

I really like this guy, he's working out with me b/c he wants me to be happy with myself, his mom packs me lunches when she makes theres(I know.. i know.. that's what I said, she's too nice), I'm always over for dinner, nice family.. Perfect 10! He's quiet, timid even, but can be assertive so I don't just walk all over him, he tells me no(but I told him not to get too used to that) and he enjoys being with me, told me I make him laugh and he's glad i'm not as timid as he is(opposites attract right?) Oh.. and he was a virgin when I met him *clears throat*Don't judge me, we waited.. for a lil bit... But I mean,  I like him so umm, why wait? And I dnt feel horrible about it, cause he is a FREAK! .. ok i quit. lol

Bottom line, ladies, the greatest things come in the most unlikeliest packages! I was looking for love, and you know where I found it? At school in math tutoring.. go figure? Finding a man at school?? Where they do that at?? lol. j/p I'm just ecstatic! I got me a good black man who has goals, a plan, and isn't afraid of commitment.  SCORE!

^^^ And this is what I won't ever do again ;)

You'ze A Hoe... Sideline Hoe

You said you need someone to swallow his kids???

Well where the hell do I sign up?? smh.. so delicious!

Under A Rock

I’m gonna write this from under a rock,
Under a stone that got flipped and skipped
By some bad ass children down the block.
The lone stone
That stands alone,
Not a kick or a car to send it on.
This stone, my shield
Protects from the rain and snow
Covers my head from heat and wind too
So I aint got a reason to go.
This rock all jagged and rough
Scares away enemies
That call themselves tough.
So afraid of being cut
They dare not get too close
This lil old rock
Keeps me safe from most.
This pebble,
Reminds me much
Of Gods hand
Keeps everybody I dont need out
And everybody I do need in.
And so this is where
I choose to write.